March

Today is March 1st, which means my babies will be born in March. Since we knew we were matched I wondered if they would have a February or March birthday, but now I know it will be March. Saturday is my mom's birthday so I think it would be wonderful if they were born on that day, and could share a birthday with their grandma, but whenever they come will be fine.

The waiting is hard for me. I think it is mainly because I want to have them in my arms and have the control of what happens to them. I have already started to think of them as my children, so it is hard to not have any control of their well being right now, but I know that the longer they stay put the healthier they will be when they are born. I do believe that T is taking good care of them too, which gives me comfort. Things are going well for T as far as I know. She had some preterm labor and has been in the hospital, but she was released last week, and is doing well. Her last dr. appt was on Monday, and our SW told us she is doing well. She has also decided that she wants to see the babies after they are born. We have been praying that she will have comfort and peace with her adoption plan, and I think that this will help her find that comfort and peace. I would hate for her to have any regrets afterwards.

I feel that we are mostly ready for the babies to come, but I don't know if we will ever completely be ready. My office is planning a shower this Friday for me, they are so excited for us too. One of my co-workers who also has been hoping to adopt, was able to bring her baby home just last week. It is crazy how things happen, I actually found out about our match before she found out about the potential situation that brought their son home, they had been waiting for almost two years, and now they have their son home already. Adoption is really an amazing thing, and I am so grateful that I have the opportunity to experience it.