ups and downs

This has just been one rollercoaster ride after another. Still not sure how this will play out and going crazy trying to figure it out. First I heard from Matt on Friday. He told us that B had a dr. appt. and they told her that she could be induced on Thursday. He than told me that B had called to talk to Hannah a few times just to see how I was doing. I was happy to hear that. B also told Hannah that she wanted to talk to me again on the phone. No mention was made if we would be able to meet her mom or not. Matt also told us that if the baby was born on Thursday, then they could have her sign MS papers on Sunday. If B signed MS papers instead of GA papers, she would not be able to change her mind afterwards. We are in the process of moving in to a new home and have been trying to get everything finished before the baby comes. We figured this will give us the whole week and then hopefully we could head to Atlanta on Sunday to meet our daughter. I was feeling so good all weekend. It just felt like everything was falling into place.

Today we found out a whole new story. Mike talked to Matt this morning, and all of a sudden B's attitude has changed about everything. She seems to not be happy with the help that LDS FS has given her and seems to be upset with Hannah. She now won't even tell Hannah for sure if she is going to be induced on Thursday or not. So now, we are back to not knowing what will happen. Maybe she is just having second thoughts and this is the way she is expressing it. I am not sure. I hope I get to talk to her again. But I guess we will just have to see how this plays out and try to remain hopeful.

I was just saying to a friend this weekend how my fear has just left me and I was feeling so good about things. Now I'm right back to feeling that fear and hoping and praying that this little girl is in our arms soon.